Sad night

I am very very sad now. Getting numb just staring at the screen. I don't know why I screwed it up. But I feel like extremely tired but I can't sleep. 

Sometimes I would think what about one week without social networking, without picking my nails and without xxx? I tried to but never succeed. I just don't know the point why I am still staring at this glaring screen while my eyes hurts. It's meaningless, and I hate it, but I keep on doing it, for years. 

Maybe I should think of the rains.